I’ve been seeing a therapist for my anxiety for a few months now. Some shit went down last summer that triggered my PTSD and put me into a permanent fight or flight mode. Straight limbic brain. I was BARELY hanging on before. My anxiety gets worse and worse and time goes on. This shit sent me straight over the edge. I should have been in therapy for it years ago, but to me it’s a weakness and I loathe weakness.
That said, it’s not so bad! I basically unload on this poor guy once a week and he gives me his opinion. But it’s a two way street with my therapist. He doesn’t just ask me questions or expect me to ramble on non-stop about my shit. He gives some of his story as well. As a result, I don’t feel like I’m doing all of the giving which makes me more comfortable. It’s kinda awesome.
I was so non-stop pissed when I first started with him because it wasn’t by choice. I got into a bit of trouble when I lost it and had to say I’d see a therapist for three months. My three months ended about four months ago and I’m going to continue seeing him. It’s been pretty good for me. Sometimes just talking stuff out with someone unbiased helps me to sort my thoughts a little. God knows I need help sorting my thoughts out.
My mind is like a movie theatre with all the films playing at once.Danica
I don’t know how to explain it any better than that. I have all of these scenarios playing in my head on repeat. Some change from day to day, some play most days. I get stuck in these loops and end up in the throws of a panic attack. It’s getting a bit better, though! I take my meds and seeing my therapist helps too. I had a hard time going on meds. They’re not too bad though. Nothing that zombies me out or anything. To be honest, I have days where I wish they did. We all have bad days, but they pass.
It’s hard to seek out help. Trust me, I get it. If you’re dealing with shit and you think you can handle it on your own, please try out a therapist or counselor. It’s cheap and it could literally save you sanity, if not your life.